When I get well (hopefully in less than a month) I’ll have to really get working on building my life. Wasted enough time.
Getting a job…but it will have to be a job (a PAID job) where I don’t have to go to a job interview. A job I can just get. I refuse to go to interviews. They’re unnatural and invasive and it’s not in my nature. Answering all those personal questions, having to “sell myself”, that is just not something I’m going to do. What jobs exist where you don’t have to? If only I had family members who could just pull strings and get me a job (a job I ENJOY, not a miserable, pointless one).
But another problem is I need to move abroad. And whatever job I get won’t be a job I can get hired in other countries for. You’d need some high paying job/fancy degree for that. Wish I could just be offered a nice job abroad. In Spain, Italy, San Francisco, Boulder. But there’s just no prospect for that. Especially when I have no work experience, nothing on my resumè, and no completed higher education. Ugh. FML. I really need this. Hopeless. I’ve just lost all faith in myself. I see no way to make any of what I need to happen happen. I’m stuck like this, in this town, forever. No way out, will always be friendless etc.
I may be going to San Francisco this summer. But I also want to go to Denver/Boulder. Hopefully at least 2 weeks but likely just one week. Was planning to do 3 weeks or more, but then I realized that i have a loan to pay down :/.
Right now I’m leaning towards Denver/Boulder. Much more so than San Francisco.
Boulder is where I want to spend my summer. Hiking in Chautauqua. San Francisco just doesn’t appeal to me as much anymore.