Alright so I got the money but I feel reluctant to book the trip. I don’t want to go when I’m in a state of mind where I won’t enjoy it.
When I do go, a big part of the trip is going to at least one meetup. I need to trust and be somewhat comfortable with other people in order to go. these days the presense of other people just frustrates me. this is really bad timing.
I HAVE THE MONEY!
what the hell do I do?.. I can’t postpone it until next year.
Went to look at apartment yesterday, was alright, better than this one by a lot